Stopping Breastfeeding After 1 Month And 11 Days.

Today went KKH's O&G for the 2nd time regarding breastfeeding issues. Been having painful lumps and blockage for the 3rd day and it hurts more when i pressed on them. After seeing doctor, was referred to LC again. LC helped me to massage and hand expressed out milk. She advised me to try football hold to latch Baby Arielle so as to clear the painful lumps. So i did and after Baby Arielle suck for awhile, i did felt lesser pain as compared to before. But i already got the "want to give up" feeling since i had these painful lumps and blockage. So i told LC i would like to get the pill to stop breastfeeding. LC told me to continue breastfeeding as i got a lot of milk and she say i should just latch from now onwards instead of feeding Baby Arielle bottle. At that moment i got this thinking that from now i am the only one to feed her and hub don't need to wake up at night already. I know i shouldn't be thinking like this but...

This time round i really couldn't stand the pain especially this is the 2nd time that i have encounter difficulties while breastfeeding. When i got back home, i tried the football hold position but my right nipple hurts after latching for awhile. So i switched to the left but seems like Baby Arielle still don't seems satisfied. And when i pressed on my boobs, i felt the same pain again though it was minimized already. So when i was telling hub that my boobs hurt again, hub told me to just take the pill and stop. Coz before that i was already complaining about the pain everyday. At that moment, i didn't think much. I only repeat asking hub if i should really take? Hub told me to just take.

So i finally popped the pill. After taking the pill, i immediately regret my harsh actions that i cried. Thinking that i will not be able to breastfeed babygirl anymore. Although now i don't have the pain like before, but my boobs are getting engorged really fast! It's like after a few hours my boobs especially my right side will be hard and pain. And i will have to hand express or pump out. Sigh, feel like breastfeeding is so much easier coz i can just latch Baby Arielle when she's hungry. But now when i see her sucking her mittens or finding for nipple when i carry her, my tears will automatically drop. Guess we have already developed a bond between us while breastfeeding. Really wish that i can undo everything and go back to before.

Why didn't i just endure a bit more though it was painful since i already did so for 1 month? My actually goal was to breastfeed until babygirl turns 6 months or when she turns 2 months when i had the painful lumps. I really miss the moment i am latching her. Now i only can pump out and throw. All i left is that few bottles of EBM in the fridge that will be finished very soon. If i were to have another child in future, i really hope to persevere in breastfeeding longer! Pardon me for this very long post.

Baby Arielle's Checkup On 1 Month And 4 Days Old.

Pictures taken few days back.

 

 

Getting annoyed already

Taken last night when Elton initiated for a photo together :)

Baby Arielle's full month cake!

Indri and Baby Arielle

Baby Arielle looking at the camera

Indri and Elton

Clothing bought by Indri for Arielle (Thanks again!)

Yesterday we bought Arielle to polyclinic for her Hep B 2nd Dose. Brave girl only cried for a short while after the injection. Then was doctor's assessment. Baby Arielle is weighing at 5.1kg now. 97 percentile :X And her height is 56.5cm. Tall girl as told by doctor :D Was kinda shocked when we saw her weight. We thought she will be the most 4kg+ lol. No wonder the size s diaper was getting tight on her. At night indri came to visit us. And she bought some clothing for Arielle. She's always buying stuffs for us making me feel so paiseh! Previously she bought clothing for Elton too. Really thankful to have such a nice friend =)) Had a great time catching up with her. Looking forward to another meetup soon!

Baby Arielle Turns 1 Month Old!

Dressed up in her new sleepsuit

"Salute"

Getting ready to go out

With my 2 precious

With my babygirl

Favourite drink at Ding Tai Fung

Family photo take 1

Family photo take 2

Mine

Favourite!

Favourite too!

This is nice too~

Xiao long bao~ Had 2 of this

Hubby's

Sis's

Red bean and chocolate xiao long bao

Back home sleeping in her "surrender" position lol

Today is my babygirl's full month. Had a simple celebration with family. Went to Nex to have Ding Tai Fung. Wanted to buy a baby pram at Kiddy Palace but didn't find any that we like. Most prolly gonna get one next month at Baby Hyperstore. Decided that we shall invite people on Baby Arielle's 1st birthday instead. Had a great time dining at DTF. After eating, went ntuc to walk walk and we are back home :) Once again, Happy 1 month old, Baby Arielle! Daddy, mummy and korkor loves u!

Updates Of Recently.

In deep thoughts~

 

^_^

Cheeky look :P

Long time since i last pumped out 150ml.

Pestered hubby to buy for me this :/

Our very first family photo. Major love!!

Love this picture with my babygirl too!

Taobao buys arrived today!

Yesterday went to baby hyperstore at kaki bukit with hub, Elton and Arielle. Wanted to buy a stroller at first, in the end we decided to buy on this coming Monday instead. Cause hub is off on Monday and Tuesday. So i bought a My Brest Friend nursing pillow from baby hyperstore. Was $83.80 at first, after discount was $73.70. Tomorrow will be the end of my 30 days of confinement!! Yay! And Monday will be Baby Arielle's full month. We will be celebrating with my family only. Gonna have dinner at Ding Tai Fung on that day. And yesterday night i went online to order full month cakes from Sweetest Moments. Hub gonna distribute to his colleagues. Hope i can persevere in breastfeeding though sometimes i still feel like giving up cause it's way too tiring! Oh and yesterday we were out for the whole day so i didn't get to pump every 3 hourly. Came back home with badly engorged boob and my right boob actually yield out 150ml. Lol. Shall update again soon~